After Church Fun

"Update Blog" is still high up on my priority list; unfortunately, so is everything else. In the meantime, here are some pictures of Saidster and her dad having fun waiting for me after church. When I walked out to our car, all I could see was a cute little blonde head sticking out the window. I missed all the fun. :-)

I Know, I KNOW

I said I would blog, and I WILL. Promise. Errrrr. How about I blog about not blogging? It's like, should I give you all an update on the happenings of our ever-exciting lives the past few months, or should I watch The Brady Bunch episodes online?

Hmmm.

I think you know the answer.

Say What?

My mom called today and asked me in her sad voice, "Do you blog anymore? Where are new pictures of my granddaughter?

This got me thinking. Maybe I shouldn't leave the posting of baby pictures entirely up to my husband and his facebook page. Remember when I started that whole other blog solely to post pictures of my baby, then quit updating it?

So, perhaps I'll re-think my blogger protest. THAT'S how much I love you, Mom.

Where Have I Been?

I'll tell you: At home, not blogging. That's where. Okay, that may be a lie, I am blogging, just not on this blog. I work for an SEO company and write about geothermal awesomeness and plastic surgery. My own personal blog has taken a back seat, not only because I already spend five hours a day on various social networking sites under an alias, but also because once I decided to tone down my attitude I've run low on the inspiration. Turns out attitude inspires me (who knew?). Truth is, I simply don't have it in me to post pictures of the fam and write about our day-to-day happnins' And, do you care? Probably not; otherwise I'd consider telling you about the time I worked from home and Sadie learned about Jesus from VeggieTales. Or the time she turned one. I feel I should post pictures of her as a newborn and then pictures of her now to wish her a big internet HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY, but I probably won't.

Perhaps I'll be back, but for now the time I have with Sadie when I'm not working is time I'm not going to spend updating this blog. She's too damn cute not to snuggle every chance I get.

The End of the Story...almost

Thank you for all your input! I do honestly want you to tell me what to do. I won't pretend I'm above being bossed around.

Today I had a long conversation with my boss. He told me to expect to work 60+ hours per week for the next few years, and after that I could set my own schedule. I was expecting these type of hours, but had somehow managed to lie to myself (again) that leaving Sadie wouldn't be a problem for me. I don't know, 60 hours seems like a long time to leave her in the care of someone else. My husband works long hours as well, which means this cute little girl of ours would see her parents for two hours a day. Wowzers.

How important are the first three years? I mean, really? Do you think it would be better to leave her now while she won't remember, or wait until she's older? Is there EVER a good time to leave your kids in the care of someone else for twelve hours a day? Maybe when they're thirteen? Twelve? Sixth graders do kind-of bother me. After an unfortunate experience as a counselor at Outdoor School, I sort-of swore off sixth graders.

But seriously (seriously, I really did swear off sixth graders), am I over-reacting? Will she be okay? This is a great opportunity with huge financial rewards. AHHHHHHH!

This is the part where you tell me that staying home is the best decision, that money isn't worth giving up rocking my baby to sleep at night--because honestly, a piece of me died inside when I seriously thought about missing out on kissing that sweet little face of hers for 60 or more hours per week. All I need is to be told that everything will be okay; that I'll eventually get over the disappointment of passing on the career for right now.

I guess when it comes down to it, there's no place I would rather be than watching Veggietales World of Autotainment and singing silly songs with this gal.

Make! My! Decision! 2009!

Time for another edition of Make! My! Decision!

For the few of you who may still check this blog, I need your help. I've been on the fence about this whole going back to work dealio, and since I'm positive I'm not alone here, your opinions would be GREATLY appreciated. The thing is, here's the thing, there's this thing, and...okay. I have this great opportunity to go back into financial planning, however, a huge reason I quit the last financial company I worked for was because we don't live by parentals and Sadie would be put in daycare. You know, the whole first-time mama drama over leaving your child in the care of someone else? Ya, you get it. So, I quit. For a few months afterwards I worked for some company-or-other making calls from home, but that job was lame and boring, so I found something else. Then THAT job was really lame and ended up costing me more money than I made...so, I quit again. I'm really not a bad employee with no company loyalty, but some jobs you gotsta quit. After quitting lame job #2, I decided I wanted to try financial planning again. However, while I was going through the training with current financial company, I was offered another job working from home. This second job is low-key, work whenever, part-time, basically perfect for a stay-at-home-mom. So, here's my dilemma:

I'm breaking it up into lists. I find lists are easier to read. Plus, I can cut out all those annoying filler words and sentence structure crap.

Financial Job:
* I like it
* More time away from Sadie
* Probably more stress (although, job or not, I'm going to be a ball of stress anyway. Just the fact that my car needs to be vacuumed out is reason enough to irregulate my breathing.)
* More money

Other job:
* work as little or as much as I want
* stay at home with kiddo
* less money

I'll be honest, it boils down to money. Financial job = more pay, other job = less pay. Job vs. staying home. If I can arrange it so I don't have to go into work everyday, if maybe I only had to go in twice a week, then Job #1 would be ideal. Then again, if I take Job #1 I'll feel more stressed on the days I'm not at work. Then again, Job #1 would be better for the long-term. Then again, Job #2 would allow me to take more naps, read more children's books, and do the laundry.

WHAT SHOULD I DO? I feel so guilty leaving my baby, but at the same time I feel a responsibility to do more. If I worked Job #1 we would have way more financial freedom, plus I would be able to transfer if Warren were offered a job in Oregon.

Why can't life be a Choose Your Own Adventure novel that I could flip through and read the outcome before I made my choice?

Whew, it's a good thing I'm delegating this decision you!

Are YOU self-smart?

Think about it. But not too hard, if you know what I mean.